Ramona and Beezus

Movie that I recently watched, RAMONA AND BEEZUS. How I find it a nice film? I would say, it brings a lot of surprises to me as a viewer. It keeps us brainstorming what will happen next on the super extraordinary girl, Ramona. It also brings us a lot of our childhood memories. I was once a Ramona, and I guess a lot of you was like Ramona, a troublemaker and cause riot wherever she goes. Full of fantasies and inborn comedy actress.Haha.

Selena Gomez as Beezus and Joey King as Ramona. Look at Selena, she is so beautiful.

It is also the best bedtime story.

Beezus: Who could ever love a girl named Beezus?!

Ramona: Jesus?

Love every scene in this film, is a "must-catch" movie for everyone. Not only a comedy, but a warm and "happy ever after" awesome life portrayed story. Want to know more about its awesomeness? Catch it now!

一条每个人都不该走的路

怨这个社会黑暗，所以所做的每一件事情，都是逼不得已的。有这种想法的人，其实还好，至少他们还知道自己所做的一切，是违法的，是错的。只是在替自己找借口。

对，是，没有错！这个社会很黑暗，我们生活在一个明争暗斗的社会，应该保护人民的人，却是最迫害人民的。应该奉公守法的人，因为这世界的黑暗，选择赌一赌自己的性命。我听他们说，私会党，黑社会， 他们所谓的帮会，才是帮助人民解围的。是这样吗？走私水货，贩毒，高利贷，都是解救人民的做法吗？我那天狠狠地丢了一句话：“不要跟我谈黑社会，他们已经不是人了。”虽然也觉得自己说得太重了，但我不得不这样认为。因为我的生活，就是被这一切所摧毁的。

或许，从前的帮会，真的是讲义气，为弱势讨回公道的。时代变迁，曾经不谈利益的帮会，变得只谈利益。曾经为的是持强扶弱的帮会，现在为了帮助你渡过难关，放高利贷。为了帮你减轻压力，教唆你服用毒品。为了帮助你不被父母责骂，替你掩盖你所犯的错，因为那叫做义气！

我不能说每个私会党员都是这样的，但发生在我身边的，就是这样。若只是个人认为不服气，想去替朋友讨回公道，那种心态，至少是单纯的想帮助朋友。挂着自己帮会的名字替别人出头的人，他们也非常的单纯，因为他们是一群被利用的小跑腿，来替帮会招收会员，打响名声。为的只是利益。

他们荼毒中学生，利用他们想要惩威风的心态，玩弄一些课题，比如，为华人争一口气，不向政府势力低头，或是，能更快更轻松得到很高的酬劳。鼓励他们加入私会党，当这些思想不成熟的青少年得到了一点甜头或帮助，觉得他们很讲义气，便会更积极地为帮会付出，甚至放弃学业。

这一些青少年，都是属于患有过动症的青少年。他们很容易被摆布，被利用，也非常容易误入歧途。在我身边，就有好几个这样的例子，他们都是被荼毒的。无论你怎么劝，他们就是有他们自己一套的想法，认为他们没错，错的是这个社会。我只能说，像这样的青少年，只能够待他们自己踢到铁板，或是被人摆了一道后，得到自己的后果时，才懂得后悔，想要回头。如果踏得并不深，还能够回头，但若不能够醒觉而越陷越深，这就是一条他们永远都得不到快乐的不归路。

不要认为是别人害自己走上这条路而痛苦，想一想最当初，是什么让他们无法回头。答案往往都是，自己的选择。当我们还能选择自己要走的路时，请想一想后果。不要怪罪他人，不要认为是别人的陷害，面对自己。这样，就算曾经做错过让自己懊悔，当我们选择去面对时，那颗心，就已经得到喜乐了。

我们生活在这样的一个社会里，不仅仅是大马，全世界各地都有同样的腐败。但做人嘛，别总认为这个社会很丑陋，所以自己才会变得这样。请想一想，因为有这种想法的人，才会有越来越多心里充满怨恨的人及贪图利益的人，这个社会才会越来越腐败。推崇腐败的，不就是自己吗？这是一种恶性循环，父母认为，犯法是因为逼不得已，孩子就会认为这一切都没错。那我们的下一代，会有光明的一天吗？抱着赤子般的心，面对这个社会，只要相信这世上好人还很多，适当地提防，不怨不恨，我们的心自然能够得到平静。我们活着，难道就只是为了那一口气吗？为了自己，为了下一代，别再走错路了！

献给：

家人及朋友。

祝福。

My childhood dreams (not really) but miscellaneously crap

Randy Pausch (October 23, 1960 – July 25, 2008)

"You just have to decide if you're going to be a Tigger or an Eeyore"(Pausch).

Well, I would say, I have both Tigger and Eeyore in me. It depends on what kind of situation I am in. Most of the time, I am a Pooh. Can I say like that ar?

I watched this clip couple years ago, and I have almost forgotten this man. This is a very right timing, that this clip appeared to me again today. Because I was thinking about my life this morning while I was showering. I thought a lot this morning, about my life, my work and everything that I dreamed to have it but it never happened by me.

In life, in the past of the 23 years, I have done nothing, although I thought of doing many things but all failed. This is devastatingly happened again and again in my life. I am a dreamer, I often dreamed of a lot of strange and outrage things. I used to be a troublemaker since I was little, and I used to be a debater since I was able to speech. I was a different kid, I destroyed toys, I asked 100 of questions a day, I fell down almost every week and I was the main character of every embarrassing incident in my childhood life. I was being boycotted by my same ages and my sisters, nobody sees me as a splendid kid, but I see myself a different one. =)

They laughed at me, thought I was a weirdo. Yes, I was. Because I used to act and say something weird and funny. That was my childhood, with anger, tears and silence. My companions are always me and myself, I always believe that I will be a different one, so I never got upset because of their 'green eyes' on me. One thing I found myself good is, I always know how to comfort myself with Ah Q's, because I am a Chinese!

BUT NOW

I think I have slowly forgot who I wanted myself to be. I have become someone that I couldn't even recognize myself. This is bad. I don't know if that was because I forgot my dreams, or I have just realized that sometimes, we just have to do less to make our lives happier. Nehh I don't wanna be a superwoman or a billionaire, I just wanted to be a person with wisdom and good thinking. But what have I done?!

I must start doing what I wanted to do all these whiles. I want a change in my life, there's no rooms left for me to waste more time. Been thinking of quitting, then I think I should plan and do it right away. I wanna be a Tigger now, don't stop me. Haha

A Designer

Designers are still design-ners and they are neither superman nor superwoman.

10 Things That Designers Can't Do ( Basically talking about myself)

1) Think less

Undeniably true! Designers think a lot in both logical and illogical ways. Because they have a lot of pictures in their minds, perfect ones and imperfect ones (because they tend to seek for the perfection from the imperfect thingy). They could be very paranoid sometimes when they feel something go wrong.

2) Sleep well

Because they think too much, so they cant really get to sleep very easily when suddenly some ideas pop up in their minds. There has no such thing of 'no works after 6pm' for designers, because they are working every second except when they are sleeping dead.

3) Not to get blamed

They are just barely an human-shield. Used to prevent the penetration of weapons, they are always the middle one, good tool to be used while having misinterpretation with clients. So basically, designers have bad reputation in anyway. However, they are probably the useless shield ever as they cant stand to get blamed too much. They are made by flesh for Goodness sake!

4) Work on time

Designer can't work when u ask them to work. They work when they have ideas of how to work.

5) Get up on time

They work all the time, even when they are sleeping, they could dream their ideas too. So don't ever think they sleep too much, because they can't rest much too!

6) Being myself

Designers sometimes, for living, they bow to reality, that they could only do what people request them to. And most of them time, they didn't even know the definition of design and the job scope of a designer. Sketcher or painter probably?

7) Tolerate with ridiculous situation

What is the ridiculous situation a designer could never ever bear with? Answer is, when the concept was Japanese and end up become African. Ridiculous not?

8) 'I'm ok!'

Designer is not hypocrite people, they can't tell you that they are okay when they are actually not. The most they could tell is, 'I don't wanna talk anymore! ' Fuhhhyoor!

9) Tell the value of their works

Designers hate it when people ask how much does the sketch costs. And they hate the most while people exclaim:" Walao, why so expensive?!" Please note that, there has no market price for design, your quality of life is the thing that matters.

10) Stop thinking of quitting their jobs

Thing that will always come to their mind is, ' I have had enough, I want a quit!'

ARRRRRGHHH!~

All Good Things

Caught a movie, 'All Good Things'. This film was inspired by the most notorious missing person’s case in New York history since 1982 to 2000.

ALL GOOD THINGS is a love story and murder mystery set against the backdrop of a New York real estate dynasty in the 1980s. Produced and directed by Andrew Jarecki (director of the Academy Award-nominated doc Capturing the Friedmans and producer of Catfish). This film was inspired by the mysterious unsolved missing person case happened between Robert Durst, scion of the wealthy Durst family and his wife. Mr. Durst was suspected but never tried for killing his wife Kathie who disappeared in 1982 and was never found. The film stars Ryan Gosling, Kirsten Dunst and Frank Langella as the powerful patriarch, and captures the emotion and complexity of this real-life unsolved mystery (extracted from http://www.magpictures.com/allgoodthings/).



Robert Durst, the main character of this true story was suspected suffering from Schizophrenia, and was believed it was because he witnessed his mother's suicidal when he was little. Where he found himself not guilty on the disappearance of his wife, and the dead of his best friend and his next door folk. The only thing that he admitted at was, he did not kill his next door folk but unintentionally caused him dead to self-defense while he was attacked by the folk. And he only found himself guilty on the wrongful of dismembering the body instead of lodging police at first.

I dug out the story behind the film after watching it, as it was a true story. I was curious to know how Robert Durst look like, and also his wife. Although it was a little creepy when I found out more and more, but that reminds me of some people around me. Defend themselves innocently and find a lot of excuses that prove themselves innocent and act a lot to convince people that they had never done so. This is driving me insane, I don't know who to trust, and I don't wanna accuse them wrongly. Scared that I will also be trapped into the Schizophrenia symptom.

So, God, only You know the truth. I believe that You will reveal the truth one day, as I am Your child, You will let me see things crystal clear, so that I will learn. Thank You Lord, for letting me see some true colors, so that I learn how to cope with the worst situation, under Your arms, I learned how to be strong. And God, cure the broken hearts, for only You, the one and only God who could cure. Make them know the greatness of You, understand You and love You. In the name of Jesus, Amen.

01012011

01012011

Slept at 5 plus in the morning and got up at 7 something again as I need to welcome the coming of this brand new year and also to welcome the presence of God into my new life. I looked into window and welcome the presence of God, and I prayed.

Regarding the prophecy on me, 2011 will be a very tough year for me. I should take everything easy and take everything as message which God gonna let me know. I believe God has His plan for me, tough time over are to make me stronger. I shall give it all to Him, for He is the only one who could help and to rely on.

I thank God for the blessing on me. The end of 2010 doesn't write the end, but its another beginning of my life. Full of challenges and hardships yet I believe everything will be just fine for He, will be looking after me and bring me thru every obstacles.





For my loved ones, and people around me,

Please forgive me, if I ever done anything that hurt your feeling, and my mistakes that brought you into chaos. Please forgive me for what I have said and done that is not truth and emotional. I appreciate you all, the true loves.