Been so long since my last entry. Now it recalls me, the purpose of blogging for me was to make myself think that I am pathetic. And I realized that, those are redundant feeling that one should have. And now I find myself stuck in this writing traffic and I don't know what to write about realizing that I am feeling better that I don't think myself is pathetic and trap myself in that kind of melancholy anymore. Because I have lost the goal of being a pathetic blogger, so I am stucked. Funny huh?!
I hope that girl I cared about read this, because I am going to write her a grandmama story. I know that she is going to blame me for causing her insomnia in the coming one week and I hope one week is gonna be enough for her to let go of my murmurs.Haha!
EAT PRAY LOVE
This is a book written by Elizabeth Gilbert, is a book where I think it suits you so well because when I looked at you, you brought me back to the scenes from the words.
You are just like her, lost and thought that it was what you should do. You did things just to reach others' expectation. There's actually another you dwelling inside your mind, telling you that you still have your dream to pursue. But in reality, you backed off because of the another you living in the city think that "no, it is life."
And let me tell you the truth, if you don't step out for yourself, you will need to bear the fruits of it even if it tastes bitter, you still have to swallow it. You yourself know it well, you hate your life now. And you knew that you have to face all these things because you chose it. Do you really wish to continue this kind of life and continue blaming yourself and live with regrets after 10 years?
Everyone lives in this world are for different mission and for different purpose. Let me tell you another truth, many people are seeking for the answer about the meaning of life, but they will only figure out when they are about to rapture. We must live on, and live our life fullest because the meaning of life itself is for us to taste, for us to learn how to let go of sadness and the darkness side of us. Life is a very long battle, you can only have the victory after you able to leave every emotion behind and live on. Then you will find out that those negative thoughts and emotions are just something so tiny because more battles are coming, what for you stay in that small tiny part and keep telling on people how hard is your life if you never moved on? Everyone tastes the same thing, because that is the meaning of life.
So give yourself a break, seek for the long-lost joy. Have a cup of non caffeinated coffee, open up the seal and read the book that I will send to you sooner. I believe that you will like it!
*P.S. Still looking forward for your coming!
With Love.
