Those days in the small room downstairs Part I

Oh Dear God oh, I can't believe that its been 2 years. This is kind of a farewell entry, will sound a little sad, but everything will come to its end, and this is it. Staying in ss2 for almost 2 years. I never expect time could really run so fast, its like we have been experiencing live and dead like a real grown-ups. However, for me, everything has gone out of the rail, badly not in the right way.

Its about end of May 2008, we moved into this house in ss2. Everyone who decided to shift to this house, have their own bad memories from the previous, so as I. We finally found this house after traveling around different areas, and this house is the best among all, and we decided to rent it. I guess that's why this house is like a shelter, and is like a reborn for each of us. Started with 4 of us, I enjoyed the moments and process of how it is started. Contracts, furniture, housemies and friends. Laughters and melodies, flying in the air of the summer days.

Because of these excellent people in this house, it become the most happening and popular place in ss2 (self claimed). It is just like a hub, when people don't have any idea of where to go to, here they will think of,because of these excellent people living in this house. Assignments, parties, alcohol even gambling, all happened here. You may think all these are just fine, that is because I haven't mentioned about the prostitution once happened in this house in my housemie's room on his bed (people, I guess you know who am I talking about).Imagine how sinful this house is.

Picture taken during one of our classmate's birthday party. From left, Kelly, Stef, Huat, Ming Nyet, me and Jun.

Video that taken during my birthday last year, nice one, TRIO!

I miss all of them in this house, I miss how we were happily hanging out nicely together, I miss those old days. They were so nice to me, but now I could only feel hates from them. I hope that is because I have been thinking too much, same time I hope they could tell me what went wrong that loose all these ties. I am not a good person, I guess many bad things about me inside their minds, but I still hope I could listen to what they are actually thinking about. I guess there are maybe a lot of misunderstandings, which I never explained, and also some bad rumors about me, which has been modified into worse version. I just wanna know.

Though truths are hard to digest, but I wish I would know before I leave, before everyone leaves. Hell those rumors and misunderstandings, I wanna make sure everything go smoothly and get back to its way before I leave.

More pictures will be uploaded soon.

My ex-boyfriend

Waken up by a weird dream. What the hell, I was actually sacrificed myself to save my ex-boyfriend and his girlfriend! I forgot about the story but remembered I was saying goodbye with him with a friend hug, then the scene changed, he got into trouble, and with his girlfriend beside him. I noticed they were in the deep shit, so I saved them. I forgot about the exact story, but was some sort of making myself to stay in hell and rescued them from demon.

I know that sound like I am still missing or loving him, but in fact no. I dont have any idea why such kind of dream will haunt my soundly night, freak the hell out of me. Actually, the break up with him was not really a nice one and he probably has blocked me from his friend list or had just deleted my name. Probably he had even forgotten my name and my existence in his life. Tell you what, I dont care!

I could foresee something, that he would end up marrying to an superb ordinary girl, nerd or something. Not even 1% better than any of his ex-girlfriends in the long list. I am not cursing him, just foresee something, he would not feeling amiss with my statements, but I would say, my intuition is always so strong and damn accurate which no one can doubt about it. So, wait and see.

But, if one day I accidentally bump into him in any place on the earth, I would definitely greet him or have a short chit-chat with him, and not to forget to show him my dreadful smile LOL. Hope he would do the same to me. However, I thank him for giving me a lot of memories, some even had changed me into a better person. Also, everything he had done for me at that time. He was a great boyfriend, at least he is way better than me, I was not a great girlfriend, up to today. I wish him to have a better future, shine and bright all the way!

P.S.: Don't haunt me in my dream anymore! I will miss you anyway!

My Pretty Pettish Pets

I love animals very much, and I would always shower them with my overloaded love. However, animals don't seem to love me, I don't know why, they just hate me. I thought I have been very nice to them, but they bite me in return.Awww...upset me so much!

I used to dream that if one day I am allowed to have any animal I like, I have made a pet list for myself, in case if one day, the most authorized people in the world give me such privilege to own any animal I like.

1. Panda
They are just so adorable, love their lazy attitude. Especially when they are eating bamboo leaves, the laziness is just beyond words.


2. Tiger
I remember when I first saw the cute cubs playing with their mother, that was umpteen years ago from TV, I asked my dad if I could feed a tiger cub at home too? And he replied, before you get to see them grow bigger, they have eaten you up already!


3. Penguin
I love penguin since primary kid, I think that is all because I got penguin soft toy and it looks real adorable, I love how people cartoon it in fat, chubby and furry creature.


Actually, I love any kind of animal except reptiles and human. Animals have their own thinking too, just like man do, the different thing is, they think funnily and man think evilly. That is why I love animal so much, even though they hate me.I still love them, no matter how I am attacked by them, I still love them.

I got a few of my pet's photo:

Wong Wong, I adopted him together with a few of housemates from IKANO. He gave me a lot of memories, silly, dumb dumb, and naughty. He is a very tame doggy, but quite stereotype in the sense when he saw darker skinned people, he barked like nobody business and I lectured him on this sensitive issue. He ran away from home, I think it is basically because he fall in love with a bitch. He used to love me.

Fat Fat, I insisted call her Fat Fat, because she got a fat tummy. She know I love her, and I was always the one who 'layan' her and play with her violently. But she died few months ago, guess she was really old or maybe suffered from any illness or disorder such as depression, traumatized or anorexia or broken heart, she refused to consume any food before she left us. Maybe being too emotional also one of the factors that made her unwell. She never experienced any romance or intimacy with tom cat. Quite pity actually, but she is uniquely different from any other kitty. I miss her!

Peanut & Butter, Winter White hammies..I particularly love Butter simply because he is fatter ,lazier, more cunning and glutton. Love they way he eat at the same time dozing off. Peanut ran away, acted Prison Break after I got them home only few days. while Butter nicely staying in the crib and eating non-stopping. Guess that's why I love him much than other. After peanut's in-loyally ran away, I got another hammie namely Cheese to accompany Butter. God knows I brought disaster to Butter that sent him to heaven.Butter and Cheese both died, guess Cheese was disease carrier and brought it to Butter that led both of them died. I kept on blaming myself for not paying more care on them.

And NOW, I got another two baby hammies, Roborovski this time. Both of them are cute and super duper hyperactive. I can't even play with them, they just ignore me. No pictures of them to be uploaded here yet, but will be uploading soon maybe in the entry later. However, I won't let any previous incidents happen again. Will also give them all my love, and make them the happiest hammies in the world.LOL!

Don't put me in the old folk's home!!

I should not question much, because I realized, people with loads of questions and doubts will not end up in a happy ending.Meaning, people who always wanna seek the real meaning, the real answer and the real fact will be the unhappiest one.

I don't wanna be unhappy, that is so creepy. Imagine that I will end up be an unhappy folk, will be sitting on a wheelchair, drinking a cup of Ceylon tea (Ceylon tea kosong, insisted) with a trembling hand and questioning about why is life so? Talking to nobody besides me, talking to the air, and those rude and probably rough nurses will come and ask me to shut up!

OMG, I dont wanna end up to be like this, where my kids hate me and put me in the cheapest old folk's home they could ever get and always forget to pay up the bills.Such pathetic life will never ever happen on Tan Shwu Zhen!

Okay, since I dont wanna be dumped, I will try to be an unconscious nut. I heard of that insane people are the happiest one in the world.So, if I could be that happy, is not a bad thing hey!

By the way, why normal people are not blessed with burden-less and fully freedom of whatever they want to? Oh come on, not again!

Dateline is due

FYP dateline is due, as informed, there's no extension of dateline in this world.

Repeatedly uttered by the evil side of me, 'You should rest more!'

Arghh...I can't get myself haunted, I must concentrate! You bloody devil get the hell out of my mind!

OMG! Thinking Technique's dateline is due too, on the same damn day!

Come my angel side of me, come and save my soul, you know I need help very much!

Photo of the boredom