背着乌龟壳，马拉松式地，我在绷跑着！！

有一种人，天生就爱拿痛苦来背。就算知道路会走得很辛苦，虽然很气，还是愿意继续走下去。为了什么？这种人完全不会去为这些痛苦找借口。他们就是习惯，不生气，不计较，不记仇。换来的，虽然总是大家的不谅解，他们却都不会因此而改变。

虽然犯贱，虽然很愚蠢，但若这世界上的人都那么自私自利，不管别人死活，这世界还剩下些什么？不要说是现实使到人们改变，到最后，人都还是必须向现实低头。那我只能说，这样的人生，是不快乐的。

畏畏缩缩过一辈子，害怕被责怪，害怕失败，害怕别人认为自己不好。一些人就是永远为了别人眼中的自己而活。我突然觉得自己活得很坦荡，我时常失败，时常跌倒，时常有人说我不好，我却都不以为意。我只害怕辜负其他人，我害怕内疚的感觉。

我就是这么一个滥好人，一个大家都笑我笨的滥好人。我可以背着别人的错误慢慢地站起来。不哭，要坚强，虽然很辛苦，但我会坚持。

我有乌龟的精神， 背着乌龟壳，马拉松式地，我在绷跑着！！命运，我们赌一赌！

Archived Pictures Found in my Lappie (Kelly's Birthday)

I hate squatting in front of lappie alone and waiting for nobody....

How could he dump me at home and went for supper without ME???

I swear I will whack him up until he begs for mercy!

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I promised to upload some pictures here but afta so long only I recall

SORRY, Princess Kelly!

Here to upload some pictures of Kelly's birthday celebration at Red Box, THE CURVE branch!! God, I love that place! The Curve is always the best place to hang out!

Had a wonderful lunch at Italianies. Jun and Birthday girl, Princess Kelly!~

All of us. ^^

Me and mah beloved 'Siu Lai'

Fake candid shot.

Kelly, from left, me, Liyuen the Siu Lai and mah sister!

Four sampat bitches. HA!

Kelly's first attempt.

2nd attempt. Water leakage version.

3rd attempt. Water flowing up from nose version.

Final attempt. Birthday girl spouting water.

All of us again!! In the karaoke room.

Surprise for Kelly. A Cake and Doraemon's favorite Dorayaki. Kelly was pranked at first with a Dorayaki and she really thought that was the birthday cake (representative) that we prepared for her. Funniest thing was, she looked so contented and delighted with the Dorayaki. ( Serious?!) She really appreciated what we gave to her, so touching....Well played, Kelly. LOL!

The second shot, taken by the waiter.

And she really felt happy with the real cake the waiter then brought into our room.

Birthday girl with her cake and Dora cake.LOL.

Bbuuphh** with saliva, then end of this post.

That was a day to remember. When will be our next meeting?? When are we gonna sing our lung out again? Miss you babes!

Time for bed. Nite!

Forget. Forgive.

我是不是真的那么经不起考验？
想离开的念头还是挥不去。大家都叫我再来过，你还这么年轻，仅一次的失败并不算什么。

我知道，我懂。我想告诉你们，你们想的，客套的，对的，同情的，我全都感受到，全都懂。我只是觉得我装得好累了。

你们可以笑我太单纯，不能接受社会的现实，但我只能说，这个社会的现实，是一直存在的，我知道它一直存在着。我只是无法相信，原来社会上早已没有‘真心’这种东西。

一直都能将不开心的事搁一边，然后继续做我该完成的事，这一次却不能。或许是真的觉得很受伤吧？

天啊，才觉得自己很幸福，就来了一宗这样的事。神啊，我知道你听见我，可不可以指引我一条路，一条我应该走的路？

Forget. Forgive.


我想，我其实应该谢谢伤害我的人，是他们让我成长。

我也想谢谢帮助过我的人，是他们在我不如意时扶我一把。

我真的应该感恩，即使离开将会是我的决定，即使这样的决定将破坏我们的关系，我还是会衷心感谢及祝福他们。

Disguise

我竟然还在寻找答案
真是傻得可笑
曾经看不起做作的人
而现在看一看我自己
其实也只是半斤八两

我不害怕成为别人眼中的失败者
最害怕的是，连我自己都开始看不起我自己

我只是一个一直在掩饰自己的骗子。。。

I just need time

Taking a deep breathe, finally it comes to an end, though it is heart-wrenching, but from there I learn how to be strong.

I vowed not to cry in front of them, as I knew, I need to take the responsibility of what had gone wrong. From this case, I found out the true colors, that is definitely painful but the damn-est thing is, I never even hate or blame them, although reversely I was accused and blamed on everything.

Yet, from this case, I also found loads of truth where only people we think they wont understand, understand the most. I feel grateful on those people who seldom talk to me, and to be precise they probably dont even know me much, but they always trust me. My tears were dropped for them, the true hearts. People who lay their hands on me when things got really bad, they never talked much, but action did it all.

And I always thought I got a lot of true friends, but now I realized how dumbass I am. I trusted them, but on their side, they never. I am a fake gay, I am such hypocrite until I smile to them to let them know that I am okay. This is a silent case as behind those smiley face, in their thoughts, I am the sinner.

It ends, I fall, and I will be standing up high again. I just need time...