My dream. My Life

I know many of them think I must be insane, to make such decision to stay in this small town. They think I am not smart enough, they think I have wasted my 4 years of study because of my decision. I know how other people think of me, because I am an ordinary people with ordinary thoughts. I hear laughter, and I feel despised.

I am working in an unknown small company which only has one worker, me. Every time when people asked about "what are you doing, and in what company" I will tell them that I am working in a small company which u will never heard of it. I am doing everything I could to make miracles.

I am born in this town, a so called dead city, Muar. I would never tired of asking more people to come to this dead city not because it is dead, but because it is still alive. I still choose to stay in this small town, which I have been hesitating and considering a lot before I decided to stay. I did think about my family, and also my future. I know I am being stubborn, and I don't really care how other people think about me, I don't mind at all, because they don't understand, I have dreams to pursue.

Dream in a small town like this might sound difficult, but that is my dream. I am also thinking of going abroad for Master Degree, and I will come back again to this small town. I never think it is a waste to be in Muar, because behind all these laughter, there are my dreams. Other people stop me, and even tried to wake me up, but I don't feel taking Master Degree is something wrong and I don't think working here is something humiliating.

They think I am not well prepared, they think I made wrong judgments for my life. What they think and what they say are not under my consideration anymore, because I think this is my life, I manage my life myself.

The A-Team

OMG, A-Team A-Team A-Team!!!

Auntie said she watched The A-Team before, that show was normal. I think maybe that's why The A-Team is now on the big screen again, because that is so awesome. This show deserves its glory, making more people, especially us, the younger ones to get to enjoy its awesomeness! I never watched the older version of it, guess I definitely should catch it someday.

Okay, let's talk about the show, great action, brilliant plans, cool characters and so entertaining that makes me laugh from the start till the end. That is not a comedy, but is so amusing, I madly enjoy watching it! I was like hypnotized by the story, I didn't feel uncomfortable like I used to feel when sitting on the lower row, I enjoyed watching on that seat in fact, weird. So I would tell that is all because of the movie itself, if that movie is awesome enough, audience would still enjoy watching it, even tho the seat was lousy.

The A-Team 1983

The A-Team 2010

Though both were starred by different actors, but I don't think the same crew should be called to take part in this show again as they might already grandpas of their grandsons. However, the actors did pretty well too. This show is fantastic! Thumbs up x 5 plus likes x 100,000!!!

Where I am Living in

And that is where I am living in..

I am living in a world where people fight with each others for money
I am living in a world where people know what is the benefit to fight but they are dumb enough to know what are the consequences
I am living together with a bunch of people who do not have any idea about what is peace
I am living in a world where you can find a lot of people thinking themselves are clever but start wars just because they don't wanna lose

And here is where I am living in

I truly hope, those who are lost can finally find their way
Those who are suffering can be released

Goodbye Yesterday.

等

等
记得我总爱说‘等’
等人载
等人带
等人来
等电话
等时间
等一下
等等等等等

记得 internship 的时候，我的同事兼干妈妈常会在放工时间问我，还不下班吗？
我就会告诉她，等一下，我在等我朋友的电话
她笑着说：等？你还是那句等。

人的一生好像充满了等待，这或许是一种借口，或是我太过于被动的性格，就是爱等。我总是习惯性的不生气，培养自己的耐性，我等。回想，别人也有等我的时候。我的一生，都是在等。

从前是等毕业，现在是等别人告诉我我所努力的一切值多少？人的一生是应该富裕的，富裕在于它是充实的，而不是拥有万贯家财。如果说我自己贫穷？不见得，我在等待的过程中想了好多事情，也领悟了很多。

我相信自己永远都不是最好的，我也不要求成为最好，我也不想再多做些什么让别人知道我很好。我只想等，等待我的人生开始发光，等待我所向往的安静，不需要很豪华。我在等，等待那一天的到来，等待时间将过去带走，就算那个时候得我已经白发苍苍，也没关系，人的一生，不都是在等待那一天的到来？然后，我们就会走到人生的尽头。

Those days in the small room downstairs Part II

Heard of that song Sorry by Buckcherry , that reminds me of those days. I hate the feeling of leaving, and also the feeling of seeing the leaving of others. I can't believe myself, a so called cold-blooded people would sob for Evelyn's leaving, and only I realized how deeply this house is linked with me. And I realized, how much I love staying at that place.

Sorry - Buckcherry

Oh I, have a lot to say

was thinking of my time away

I miss you and things weren't same

Cause everything inside

it never comes out right

And when I see you cry

It makes me wanna die

I'm sorry I'm bad I'm sorry you're blue

I'm sorry about all the things I said to you

And I know, I can't take it back

I love how you kiss, I love all your sound

Baby the way you make my world go round

And I just, wanted to say

I'm sorry

This time, I think I'm to blame

It's harder to get through the days

You get older and blame turns to shame

Cause everything inside

It never comes out right

And when I see you cry

It makes me wanna die

I'm sorry I'm bad I'm sorry you're blue

I'm sorry about all the things I said to you

And I know, I can't take it back

I love how you kiss I love all your sounds

Baby the way you make my world go round

And I just, wanted to say

I'm sorry

Every single day I think about how we came all this way

The sleepless nights and the tears you cried

It never too late to make it right

On the leaving day, this song was played, that turned me sad. I hope the others will still remember of this song, meaningful not only the lyrics, but the melody which all of us sang together. I wanna say sorry, for things I've said that hurt some of you, if I ever done anything that makes you hate me, I also wanna send my apology here.

I don't know whether is there still a chance for all of us to meet up again, probably when the time we see each other, it is after years. And maybe, we can't even recognise each other. I truly hope that my existence in your life is not a dirt of your life, even if it was, I hope you would rub it away.

I feel you.